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CrypTic AnsWers!24 August Surviving those expectations.....Expectations can give you a high or keep you on the low. For the longest time that i remember i believe people have expected a great deal out of me... as a student, a friend, a daughter and as a lover. And I just started to think, that it's my duty to live upto them, coz if I wasnt worthy of it, they wouldnt give a tiny rats arse!!:)
So what happens when your busy trying to make other people happy and somewhere figure that this scheme doesnt work both ways??? I mean when my parents would say.." Oh..you've just got 85% this sem...after all the facilities we give you, you should be looking to get 96%" but I would never dream of turning around and saying to them, " Damn, your just a senior officer at work, With your brains you should be the GM!" You get the picture right??
And then there are those times, when you build expectations because circumstances or sugar coated words make you think that life couldn't get more perfect than this. And while you turn your back to brag about it to your mates, This illusion crashes. And you feel like the biggest fool on this planet, because while you were busy gleaming at the amazing tower you built for yourself ; you failed to see that loose block.
My point being that, hope can be an effective catalyst to stretch your limits but very few of us can try hard to achieve a goal and expect the least from it. I havent yet figured out a way to give my best and leave the rest to God (As some would put it). How do you not lament about your failure? How do you act indifferent to a broken promise, when you can figure 99 ways it could have been kept? How do you tell someone that it's a give and take relationship, and one way traffic isn't appreciated?
An interesting conversation lead me to the concept that Alertness/Awareness is the only thing that helps you realise the expectations you've built for yourself. How aware you are of the situation makes you change the gear of your expectations which eventually saves you from disappointments. In techincal terms of survival of the fittest : it means how well you can adapt yourself to the situation. Like Daniel Kahneman said "People assign much higher probability to the truth of their opinions than is warranted. It's one of the reasons people trade so much in the market, generally with bad results."
Samuel Johnson very rightly said and hopefully someday I'll be able to master this, "I know not anything more pleasant, or more instructive, than to compare experience with expectation, or to register from time to time the difference between idea and reality. It is by this kind of observation that we grow daily less liable to be disappointed."
19 May Keeping AfloatTrying to keep my head above the water...
Doesn't matter if i know how to swim or not...
At least i'm not drowning...
and yet somehow i feel i'm getting closer to the shore! 08 April Searching SoulIn the Wilderness,
Away from my den,
Am I a Prey?
I ask myself
Being wary…
Procrastinating
With every step I take.
Will I be the victim of a hidden nail?
Indifference, Pride, Zest
Makes me fight against the odds.
Sometimes being right is just ;
Not enough!
Victory is what I seek…
Making Peace is what I want..
Don’t want to live in hindsight.
Just want to live today, like tomorrow will never come.
Can I make my way through the darkness?
Will the flickering light,
Help me go that extra mile?
I don’t want to be a victim nor a prey…
I’m just a stray soul
Making the most of my day! 17 February Chapter Closed!Made a very important decision in my life, just yesterday. It's basically a conscious effort to erase a whole chapter of my life. It's been tough almost close to impossible. And i'm the winner! Surprisingly, i feel at peace. Life's moving on and everything seems exactly the way it should be. Confrontation is probably the key to every transitional phase in life. I had mine recently. Looked into the mirror and asked myself some questions, and i wasn't happy with the answers i got! I just needed to pull up my socks and set my priorities right before i go downhill.
Don't know where the strength came from? My friends? My parents? Something super natural? Or just me?
"Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending" (Maria Robinson). And that's exactly what i plan to do! 15 February Too much to say... too less time!It's been 5 months since i got to Birmingham. Time flies.... and it has been a roller coaster ride!Have started being more in tune with how people behave, to be mature and deal with nasty circumstances. Like Goofy always said, my life is a soap opera. Some day i will actually write down all the drama i had to put up with!
Some good things to come by,
Few new friends i'm gonna treasure for a lifetime.
Learning that i'm more close to home 10,000 miles away.
I'm very proud of what i am and where i come from.
Some people have worse problems than mine...this helps make a bad day better.
That closing some chapters in life might hurt, but you know you'll be fine at the end of the day!
Someone once told me, you know your friends are for keeps when they stand by you during your tough times..( special dedication to Dagny, goofy, cookie...love you guys! thanks for always being there..you are my fortress)
No matter how hard you try and however right you can be...somethings are bound to happen no matter what....destiny, fate, karma...watever you name it! Just realised everything happens for a reason.
Went to London last week. it is an awesome city. the vibe..the blend of modern and historical times..the food..the smell... just never make your feet tired from exploring the city. But being a thorough mumbaite, i still swear by it. nothing can beat its vibrancy.lets face it...I do miss home!Being in UK is an experience of a lifetime, a costly one albeit.:) Being here was a dream none the less but i hate to miss everything back home. miss tokn to my friends, dropping over at goofy's place and devouring her food stock, going to my favorite shop every fortnight and keeping a tab of the collections that are out, visiting sis's new place, missing cute nephews short mumbai visits..
It's just a matter of time now, till i know what the future holds for me...keeping fingers crossed! do i see, cosy house in london, wardrobe with gucci and prada, regular visits from close one's, funky car, good job, a thriving bank account, someone to share those cold nights with???? "Crystal ball...Show me a smile of Victory"
04 September Silent ReminderBirth... Is a silent reminder of life! When the cries Submerge into the colossal chaos Of the existent.
Tears… Is a silent reminder of truth! When the light lingers on While the wax melts away.
Pain... Is a silent reminder of perseverance! When what you've reached Is just a mirage And the miles to cover are many more.
Love... Is a silent reminder of belonging! When the bond with what you ‘have’ Shrinks the possibility of A ‘better choice’!
Death... Is a silent reminder of Detachment! When the unknown lures you Into believing "To live" is more than the heartbeats Of a mere mortal.
Hushing these silent reminders We parade through time; Without meaning or direction. When we finally free ourselves; From the mundane. The alarms sound. Loud and harsh. To the conscious; The silent reminders....Surface again. At last!! 02 July Detached....Disconnected...DeliriousFinally getting myself to write after what feels like a million years!Things are finally taking shape in my life;like i know i'm heading somewhere. Probably i'm just reading between the lines but then; when things fall in place you kinda feel that your destined to be there! Never really understood the concept of destiny?? it's this incessant debate...is it really predetermined? or can you change the course of your life?
Sometimes i really start to question its actuality.Personally i think it just depends on your belief system and how much you can make out of yourself.This is one of the most rational ways i could explain it. but then there are so many parallels to it. Can it be serendipity?Is it something that's written on some leaf by a sage? or is it based on the fact that your destiny can be written by the pure practise of,what we call as "Newtons 3rd law of motion". While i'm trying to dissect and understand what's written in my destiny....i'm glad that so far, its been good!!:)
Digressing.....Saw superman and Krishh.couldn't help but mention this quote by shekhar kapur in an article,"when Spiderman, in sequel no. 5, takes his mask off, Sony will have to ensure he is either Indian or Chinese. Or they'll lose out on 75 per cent of their market." So however great the hollywood superman/spiderman looks.....our own hritik roshan will steer clear with maximum appeal!:P
Watched a play called 'Katha Collage' part 1 and 2.I think its an awesome piece of work. A must watch.Narrates the Anamolies of Life in the most entertaining way.
P.S: Dagny, you happy now??:P |
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